偶尔的回忆过去，让我觉得我的人生在退步。
期待、等待、失败，人生就是那么纠结。
带着复杂的心情，看复杂的人生，走复杂的路。
用无所谓的态度，过好随遇而安的生话。我也想。
用无所谓的态度，过好随遇而安的生话。我也想。
I'm exhausted of trying to control
those tears from falling. Crying myself to sleep, going blank on the
morning of exams; these have never happened before.
I
don't know what has gone wrong with me. I studied, and I knew I had, but
I just couldn't recall things that I know when the paper is in front of
me. Staring at the Methotrexate bottle, thinking 'I know this, I know
this', but nothing comes back to me. Have been praying, and praying, but
Lord? What am I to do now? Other than You, there is nobody else I can
turn to. Other than you, there is no one else who knows exactly what I'm
going through mentally and physically.
KJ, in spite of how much I want to rely on him, I can't
bring myself to. He himself has too much to cope with. Friends? Hugs,
pats on the head, few words of comfort don't do. I really don't know
what to do. Pray harder and work harder? Or just let everything go to
keep my sanity?
"Father Lord, give me a sane mind,
give me strength and everything else I need to clear the obstacles ahead,
show me the path You had written out for me, Lord. Amen."
Jiayou Cheryl!
ReplyDeleteNothing I can help on, everyone is fighting! Gambateh~ :))
Thanks! :) But may I know who are you?
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