Crisis

I lost all my confidence, and maybe even a little of my enthusiasm in the subject. I tried to put in effort, but see how it turned out? They aren't reciprocal at all. I'm tired, tired of suppressing all the stress, expectations, disappointments, and all the emotions I have to go through.It's difficult to get it through, even to close friends, what I'm going through, what exactly is on my mind. I don't know whether I'm able to hang on.

God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.